Ever feel like you are running uphill on an escalator that is going down? When I started documenting this journey, I promised myself I would share everything. The good, the bad, the ugly & be as transparent as possible. & well this past week was melting pot of all of those.
I start my journey west January 2nd. I begin my new career in the outdoor industry the week of January 9th & I found a place to live! God was SO good last week with settling my overwhelmed heart. I now have dates & a plan. With the good, always comes the change. And change & I don’t always see eye to eye upfront. Yes, I welcome change & I need change & have been working toward change but it still hits me hard.
I will be re-packing my belongings for the 5th time in 2 years. I have to decide what stays, what goes, what can make the 2,000 mile journey, and what simply cannot. For me that is the hardest part. I have to mentally prepare for the long distance from my mom & my sister and the resting place of my father. So much of my life the last 2 years revolved around them; around my dad. & now it revolves around me. Focusing on yourself is not always the easiest thing, actually it’s one of the hardest things. Putting myself first has required a whole new level of sacrifice. I am choosing to make this change, to leave what is known, and explore my dreams.
My hope this week, is that God calms my heart. I read a quote this week that really struck home; “Sometime life is about risking everything for a dream no one can see but you.” People may not always understand your desires to follow your dreams or seek out your passions, and that is ok. Only you need to believe in them, work toward them, and make them a reality.